I had to take a step back the last week or so... Life has been getting heavy and I was having a hard time focusing!
For those that don’t know, I am 27 weeks pregnant! Due to a few factors, I am high risk and in this pregnancy I have developed anxiety & prenatal depression. On top of all that, this little blessing was not planned and we didn’t know until I was 12 weeks along that I was pregnant! Panic mode from minute, well week, 12!
After the shock wore off, excitement settled in and grew so much more when we realized we were having a baby girl! Rick’s first born daughter! We will name her Ravyn Lily and she should be here on May 5th!
For Mama, it’s been a struggle! Discomfort, heartburn, and pain, but then there’s been heartbreak as well... In less than 2 months I have seen the loss of 3 people, taken from earth too soon. I have dealt with stresses unneeded, but part of life, marriage, & true friendship! I have lacked sleep, hunger, energy, and sometimes sanity!
Through this all, I have been blessed with work, new opportunities, new connections, and the continuing of a dream & passion that I feared would leave me during and after pregnancy. It’s time to make a change... My attitude, my thinking, my life... Stress holds on only as long as it’s allowed too, and we control that individually! It’s time I actually start taking control!
So my thought today is to make a daily change, everyday... Negative thoughts, worrying more than needed, giving in to grief and heartache, & continue the life I started! The happy life that had stress but was managed and not succumb too. The marriage full of love, that has growing pains, not painful egos due to the unknown, and the passion that’s mine and taking back the ownership of it!
Come on life, time to start living again!